Hulk Smash

The last few weeks have been hella weird. Seems like I haven't been myself... and others definitely have that early impression when they see me. It's usually "why are you so down", "why are you so angry" and of course this coupled with the fact I've made a conscious effort to cut down on getting super fucked up when I drink, they feel somethings wrong. Nah cutting out booze hasn't made me an angrier person, and it's weird. It's a part of me that I've never really experienced except maybe when I was a nut case playing soccer as a teenager.

I've seen myself get really short with people and pretty temperamental, maybe cause of this big project coming up at the end of the month, I don't know. I do know that when I get enough sleep and am well-rested, these behavioral traits are largely negligible. This definitely isn't me at my finest haha and I gotta sort it out. I am "that" asshole guy, but on a different... more comical level, not a legit one. Whether I'm over-stressed, over-worked I don't know, I refuse to think about it. I just don't feel like showing weakness beyond a superficial level. I bitch verbally as is but that's my own little release I find.

Thanks to Davis for calling me out on this and making me write this post haha... over a month between posts... my bad!

-Eugene